You Live You Learn

So friends today has been quite the day let me tell you! Mostly not in a good way. But I have had my ups as well as the downs. I guess let me start with the downs so that we can end on a good note. So I hadn't been able to weigh in yet this week and last night I looked up on weighwatherchers.com the meeting times to see if there was one near my dad's house as I would be heading over there early to take my dad, Liz, Jake and my grandma to the airport to go to NY. Well lucky me (sarcasm) they had a meeting time at 9 (am...booooo). Then I left my car at the house because I have to go back there to feed the cat every day while they are gone. I had a bad feeling about taking my dad's car for the night but it had more room to get all their stuff to the airport. We loaded up and I dropped then off everything was going fine. Then I had to go get fingerprinted so I head over to the place and to my horror the parking lot is SO tiny and there are a lot of cars parked VERY badly and I am driving a BIG SUV and am use to a small car. There also happens to be a wooden pole in the middle of the stinking parking lot (UGH). So after trying to maneuver and go forward and backup several times to park the car. I back into the pole. I was freaking out. I felt so bad and stupid for hitting the dang pole. I called my dad and told him what happened he didn't seem too upset. Then I tried to calm myself down and went to put my name on the list to get finger printed. It took 3 hours, yes 3 hours, that is not a mistake to get them done. All the while people were getting angry it was taking so long and there were children running around and crying. It was like a nightmare. So I had a not so good morning in all!

So now onto the good things that happened. When I weighted in I lost 2lbs even after eating all those princess cupcakes that auntie and I made. They were so cute they had poison apple, Cinderella slipper, pearl, and crown sprinkles. Next week hopefully I should be down 25lbs from my highest weight. I am so close! I am going along the thought process of wanting to get a personal trainer so that I can actually get some muscles going. I don't know about all that and how it would all work out right now though. Just a thought for the near future.

The other good thing that has happened today is that when I got home I was not in the best state of mind and so I spent time doing the devotional book that I have and reading my Bible. I was provided with two good things to share during that time. The topic was about having a gentle and quite spirit. One of the verses that went along with this in the devotional book really stood out to me and I wanted to share. 1 Timothy 6:11 says "But you , man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness." These are not the words of Jesus but Paul had some pretty insightful stuff to share too :) After I finished my devotional I was working on my Bible reading plan and came across Matthew 11:28-30. I have heard this passage I don't even know how many times. Something about it today just hit me though and it took on a deeper meaning. The passage says "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn form me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for you souls. for my yoke is easy and my burden is light." If you read it and actually take time to think about what this all would mean if you truly are yoked to someone. My devotional book asked three questions that helped it to take on a deeper meaning 1. What did Jesus mean when He said "come" 2. What did He mean when He said "take my yoke" 3. What did He mean when He said "learn from me" I am sure you know but in case you don't this is what a yoke looks like.

I am hoping to write down some more ideas for my book later tonight after I get some more stuff down around the house. I will let you guys know if anything happens with that next time.
In other news I watched Thelma and Louise for the first time the other night with Carrie. It was pretty good. I don't really know what to make of the ending still but I definitely liked it. I also have been reading a lot of the seeker series. It is soooo good! We also finished season 2 of Buffy omg sooooooo gooooodddddd! I almost cried. I also have this new obsession with finding things to bid for on ebay.

Well I hope you all have a very lovely weekend do something you enjoy doing and haven't done in a while :)
~K

The Climb

Hello again friends. So this blog is gonna be a short one because I plan on blogging again after I weigh in next which should be soon. I want to talk about the importance of the mind a little. I was going a little insane with worry the other day. I gave it over to God because I know that worrying doesn't help the situation. Sometimes though my mind just gets the better of me and for whatever reason my worry will stick with me. So I was stressing out when all of a sudden the climb came on. Totally one of my life motto songs and I definitely needed to hear it. It helped to make my attitude to shift and remember the important things in life. I am gonna post the lyrics below in case you haven't read them. Even if you aren't a Hannah Montana or Miley Cryus fan the lyrics really are good. Life really is about the climb! As they say in the movie life is a climb but the view is great.

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

If there is something that you are stressed about this week try to remember that it is about the climb and we are gonna come up again struggles but you just have to keep climbing over them to get to where and to become who we are meant to be in life sometimes.

I well hopefully be writting again very soon guys
~K

5% Never Felt So Good

Hello again my readers. I hope all of you have been doing well. It is late but I have been wanting to post since Monday night so I figured why not and I don't have to be up early tomorrow thank goodness. I have several things to share with you so let me begin.

First up is that to every ones shock and surprise I lost (drum roll please) a lb this week. That means I got to get my 5% sticker. It is a big star that says 5% on it. If you don't know by now I LOVE stickers and shiny things. So I was very excited to get it. After I recovered from my shock and almost falling over off the scale I kindly (ummm aka I was a little intense) pointed out to the guy who was weighing that I got my 5% sticker which he kindly gave me and congratulated me on. It is really funny it seems that every time I think that I have had an awful week and am going to finally gain something back I lose. Just the irony of life I suppose...and not having a very accurate scale in the house. My eating has been pretty go so far this week so hopefully I will be able to lose more. I did the Jillian Michaels video again tonight and was able to go a little be longer :)

Along my journey I have been taking I have been learning several life lessons. I wouldn't say that this one is something that I didn't already know but it was just a fun reminder from God. It seems that whenever I feel as if I am not doing a good job at something, in one of my oh I stink at everything type moods, or just stressed about life something good happens. I like to think of it as Gods way of encouraging us. These moments are there to pick you up and show you that you are a beautiful and wonderful creation and no matter you have a Heavenly Father that loves you. More specifically I was at work today and thinking about working while going back to school and sorta stressing about how I was going to make it all work and if I really am a good employee when my manager told me that I was the highest seller yesterday. It was completely unexpected and was the little be of encouragement and reassurance that I needed.

I am getting nervous about going back to school. I feel like this is part of the path that will get me to, what I feel and believe, my calling is of working with camps. I know I can do it. I don't doubt that. It is just going to be an adjustment. I have to go 16hrs of field work per week, still work, and go to my classes. It is gonna be nuts. I though that this would be an easier schedule than working all the time. I am not so sure about that now. I am also nervous that I am going to go through all this and then still won't be able to find a full time job when I get out. I am working hard on putting my worries and stress aside and trusting that this is all part of the plan for me. I know that the doors were open for me to go to school pretty easy and I trust that God will help see me through :) I always get nervous before starting new adventure especially new school years. I would drive my mom nuts when I was younger stressing about going back to school each year. Now I have learned to in my mind think of what the worst thing that could happen and then realize that even that isn't that bad. I am very excited to start this new adventure of grad school though!

Oh Oh Oh I have other exciting news! I starting writing my novel. I don't have much down yet but I at least got a couple little parts and some ideas written down in a composition book, a pink one of course. Also I started a dream journal that has been a trip let me tell you. I have dreamed about Jennifer Love Hewitt, the Duggar family, and my middle school gym. I have no ideas what that all mean...any suggestions? There was also lots of food and I was exercising in the gym. So I guess that means that I was hungry the one night and then the next night I thought that I should be working out. Who knows, dreams are so crazy! It is really hard to motivate yourself to roll over and write the dreams down when you can just go back to bed.

In other news. I watched In Her Shoes tonight with some friends and 17 again last night with Carrie. I loved 17 again and In Her Shoes was pretty good. I wouldn't say it was the best movie every but I thought I was going to hate it and I didn't. I have been watching a lot of movies lately. I would LOVE to be a movie critic.

Well it is getting late. I am going to go for now. I have off of Friday so I will try to post again sometime in the afternoon. I have my interview for my field practicum that morning. Wish me luck! These next few days try looking for those little encouraging moments. I am sure if you pay attention they are all around you!

~K

Keep On Keeping On

So are you surprised that I am blogging again so soon? I know I am. Well folks yet again I haven't had much time to get much done lately. At least it feels like I haven't had much time. I am starting to think that it is more about how you look at it though. I know that I have talked about it before in one of my other post but it is really about taking action when you have even a few moments. This could even mean getting up a earlier or staying up later. I don't really want to admit it but while I have been working a lot I have been slacking in the other things I want to be getting done when there is time. I have a feeling that there are reasons behind this. Let me tell you that I am going to be doing my best to try to figure out what that is but for now I am gonna blame it on laziness, which is sad I know but hey at least I am being honest.

I know that it can take years to learn how to make the most out of every "free" moment that you have. I am not going to be beating myself up over not being the expert on it yet. While I have been feeling like I have been slacking a little. I do not consider myself failing. I am human and I am not perfect I can totally admit that. So what if I am a little behind I am learning other things along my journey that is called life that may be more important. I have this problem of saying that I want to get something done and then I will be all for it and then I get sidetracked and don't finish it. I really want to accomplished the three goals I am aiming for though. I may end up going back and forth and lose interest along the way but I am determined to finish them no matter what or how long it takes.

So I didn't lose any weight this week. I didn't gain anything either though which is good. I am trying to have a better week this week but I am not so sure that it is going that good so far. I have purchase a Jillian Michaels workout video which is exciting beyond belief. I love her! I did it for the first time the other day. I was only able to make it through the warm-up, 2 circuits out of the 7, and the cool down but it was a start. I will hopefully be able to work up to doing the whole video eventually.

I have only read one more day of Bible readings. It was a good one though. I read about Noah and the flood. It is so hard to imagine that it rained straight for more than a month. I would go so stir crazy. Then the Earth stayed flooded for a while. I would probably go nuts stuck on a boat with all those animals for that long of a time!

I haven't done any more work on my Children's story book for my Novel. I think I might start writing my book soon though. I know I said I wanted to wait to finish my kids book first but I figure why not at least begin working on my Novel.

Something that I have learned is that you may not know what you can mean to someone. I have really enjoyed getting to know a couple of my co-workers. Every time I go into work and I see that I get to work with them it makes me happy. It makes my feel good that they take the time to try to teach me things and get to know me a little better. It has taught me that you may not know how important you are to someone or what you mean to them but to always take the time to get to know those around you. You should also make sure that those you appreciate having in your life and are important to you know that you care about them :)

In other notes. I got to see The Sorcerer's Apprentice on Wednesday. It was so good. It had an amazing soundtrack. I recommend Secrets by One Republic, very good song! I also got to see My Life in Ruins it starts off kind of slow but the last half is very cute. I had the pleasure of going out to dinner with my Aunt tonight, it was fun. We went to this new place called Doc Side which was small but cute. You get to sit and look out onto a lagoon while you eat. Good times! I have been watching a lot of Buffy with my roommates. Such a good show! I have also been reading the Legend of the Seeker books, I love one of the main characters Kahlan. I want to be her!( actually I want to be a combo of several of my favorite female kick butt characters) They have also made a TV show out of these books. We are still uncertain if they have canceled the show forever but it doesn't look good :(

This time I want to leave you guys with the challenge to get to know someone you work with a little bit better. As always will be working on this one along with you guys :)

~K

Magical Times

Hello friends, I am sorry that it had been so long since I posted. It has been a crazy week. I celebrated the 4th with friends, had a weight-in, worked a lot (including a double), went to Disney, and had a fun Christmas in July day. Because of all this craziness and the necessity of sleep I haven't had much time to get far with my other goals. I know this is going on the second week of this. I am kind of disappointed in myself and am going to be trying extremely hard this coming week. I have however learned several things and have been working on changing some things within myself.


The 4th of July was so much fun. I did have to work but I got time and a half holla! Plus I only had to work till 5 so I got, off freshened up, and had some yummy BBQ. Then we watched first wives club. If you guys haven't seen it is a must. I love that movie. We ended the day with watching fireworks.

One of my friends Liz is moving back home to NY for at least 6 months and wanted to go to Disney before she left. So of course we went! I have been to Disney so many times in my life that I decided to spice it up a little by looking for hidden mickeys in the park. There are tons of them throughout the parks they can be in and on anything. For example in small world there was a key in the back of one of the animals that turns and the head of the key looks like mickey. I found several on this trip and was very excited.

Christmas in July was so much fun. My friend Jeremy and I watched A Muppet Christmas Carol. It is one of my favorite Christmas movies that I have to watch every year. Then we painted water colored Christmas pictures while having good conversation. I hung my picture on the fridge :)

I have been learning that when it comes to eating it is about balance. If you have a not so great day then try to balance is out by keeping it more under control the next day. If you know that you are going to have a busy day and will be burning more calories then you can afford to eat a little more if you want or need to. If you are out with friends or if you REALLY want something then don't always deny yourself. Just don't go overboard eat say two cookies instead of 4 or more.

I have learned that it is important to cherish the times with your friends. There are several lessons that you can learn from friends. I am all about conversations and so I love just talking with friends while hanging out. It is amazing how having a friend to talk to who will truly listen and really cares can help. The lessons you learn from friends can be more valuable then taking time to get other things you want to get done done.

Also another lesson that I have been learning and attempting to put into action is that sometimes you have to put yourself last. We all have selfish moments it bound to happen but I am coming to see that there are appropriate times to speak up and ask for what you want and times not to. I can be beneficial to put your wants aside sometimes. It can be hard to figure out when those times are appropriate though.

So for now I leave you with the challenge to do your best to live each moment in the moment.

~K

Lifegoals

So sadly to say not much progress has been made the past few days. I have been pretty busy. I have seen two movies, done some shopping, worked a double and even had arts and crafts time with Milan! I saw Eclipse. I LOVED it but I am obsessed with the Twilight Saga. I cannot wait for Melissa to come back from her mission trip at the end of this month to see it again. I also Saw The Last Airbender. I cannot even tell you how good that movie was. I had my jaw hanging open for half the movie. It had everything a movie can possibly have in it romance, action, suspense it was great. I also had the pleasure of being able to spend time with Milan today. It was so fun. I miss having here living in the area. Thanks to hanging out at the mall with Milan today and working a double yesterday I have made it to OVER 1o,000 steps two days in a row!


I am thrilled about finishing my life goal poster. When I say finished that is a relative term because I will probably think of more things that I want to add to it as I go along. The list I made is really long but I will tell you what some of the fun ones are and some of the ones that make the top of the list. Here is goes~going to all 50 state and 7 continents, getting married, having kids, writing and publishing a book, opening a summer camp, losing 55lbs more, take cooking classes, get my masters degree, have a vacation house in Europe, have a house that looks like the one in the Notebook, meet Chip Coffey and Ellen, and learn to sword fight. I have several more. If you want the full list just ask :).




The bad part of having all this fun with friends is that I have been slacking on what I have been trying to accomplish. Now for me it is hard to get "back on track" once I have had a couple days of non productivity. It tends to make me freak out and think that oh my gosh how am I going to keep doing this. Well the reality is that life is gonna be hectic sometimes. I know that I am not perfect. I am able to accept that about myself. The hard part is just trying to embrace that imperfection and just do the best you can with what you have. I then worry well was I really doing the best I could have been doing with what I had. So over the next few days I will be doing my best to get back on track and not think or worry about the could haves and would haves. It is in the past and as the wise Rafiki , yes the one from the lion king, said you can either run from it or learn from it.


I leave you with this verse from Philipians 3. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

~K